2014..!!! just arrive..huhuh..but so worried thinking my final year project..am i can do my project??..my last proposal presented was so bad..i was just being badly argued by the panels..it seem like they interested my title by asking a lot of questions..but they felt unsatisfied when i cant answered correctly..yeah of course la, i felt really nervous n lost my words at the moment.until i cried at the end of my session.i also felt angry on myself course i not well prepared..  my teammate and my supervisor tried to comfort me..once i relax n calm, i going through all panels comments n suggestions.i admit that they actually helping me.they want me to be more focus n specific on what i investigate for and my ability and responsibility , rather than just simply put without knowing nothing or full filled courses requirement..Wow!! i becoming mature lol..hohoh.. very thankful to my supervisor and teammate that still believe on me..last my panels which making me realized on something useful ..this just only the starting and may god bless all my works and my coming exams..cheers :)             

my love story..!!!

huh..being single back is not so terrible..a lot of thing i learn from that..yeah i admit that its very beautiful when we are in love..but when we just break..only god know how i felt at that moment..in my case, i the one who suppose to be blame..i m the one who ask to end the relation.when i cant leave him, i m trying to persuade him back..but he cant because he felt really hurt..i cant do nothing, just let him go.
     actully i really dont know how to treat him, cause its being a long time i dont have any boyfriend..due to that i had create a lot of problems in our relation..for the first he purpose to me and said "gonna marry me"..i cant even tell my feeling at that time..he said he had waited for me a long time..oh god, is he really wait for me??..but this relation only stand for 3 months and become my love history..what im learn is that i should appreciate people love and at the same time be thankful cause he choose to love me not other..i hope to be in love again..cheers..    

cant' bully others!!

hmm..my days in college after break one month is started..now im in third year student and i m a senior..heheh..this is the time i can bully my junior..but for sure they will not scare of me..because im very small and tiny even my classmate had bullied me for the first year.they called me kid and also treated me as kid..hmm i can't do anything more to gain my height..i already 20+ years old now..the most i hate when i was shop in supermarket i can't reach things at high...besides people outside there thought i was a school student.when i m just walking they thought i was fooling around after skipping classes..sometimes i had told them i was a college student..maybe not only my height but also my face look immature right now..whatever it is my mom told i had to accept what god give to me..thanks mom...        

going fishing turned to...

last semester break, i went back to my hometown.i thought i will have a great vacation there.before my final paper end, i had just listed up all things that im gonna to do.konon2 nye to release tension la.Even its a short vacation but to students just like me, its really meaningful.huhu
  the first thing, i really want to do is fishing in the river to find 'monster fish'.. my favorite channel hahah what??am i really love fishing??..then i m asking my mom to go fishing and she said to me 'are u serious ??'. i said yea la..after someday she brought me to a near palm oil farm.i was shocked there was a parit not river..hahah.what i expected from my mom..then i m just fished there without any complaint.even there are not tree to get shelter.then i m just used umbrella. most interesting  i used a real worms as a bait..i m not scared with worms, i think they are cute and nice..hehe..early fishing was quite fun  when i got fish but for sure la a small one .. when the sun was upright my head.i really can't stand there..the sun just like killing me..i felt dizzy and suddenly fainted..will be continue